It’s been a bit too long since I have written. It’s been a difficult month or so. Depression is a hard thing to deal with on any given day, but when you are trying to get your health in order, and trying to do everything that you need to do to qualify for weight loss surgery, it can be an exceptionally trying time.
I am trying to stay as positive as possible, but it’s getting hard. Last Friday, I looked on my patient portal to check what time my appointment is for my Dietitian’s appointment. To my surprise, I saw that the endocrinologist scheduled me for a visit to him and ordered the bariatric surgical consult for Dec 17th. I was super excited. Finally things were coming together.
Then when I went back on the portal for some other reason on the following Monday, the DEC 17th appointment was no longer there. I didn’t know what was going on. I did however miss a call from the health care system I use. I tried calling back and no one could tell me who called. They called back. When I answered I was told that the bariatric surgical consult would have to be rescheduled because they needed pre-authorization for the surgery prior to the consult. Needless to say, I wasn’t happy. I cried for hours.
I am a bit better today. Still frustrated. Trying to keep up with all that is required of me and that I need to do for myself. I have been going to PT to hopefully strengthen my knees so I can walk better and get stronger. I have seen the Psychiatrist who has signed off on the WLS. I have been seeing the Dietitian, and a Psychologist. I am always in pain. That won’t change until after surgery.
Today is dealing with the HCMP and the insanity that is insurance. They auto enrolled me but sent me no information to tell me I was enrolled in a Missouri policy when we moved here (not Missouri).
Insurance companies are a pain to deal with. I need to make sure that everything is up to date prior to Dec. first. That is when the new year starts for my insurance.
I am truly exhausted emotionally. Writing anything has been difficult. I need to make a habit of at least posting something short, every week.
Hopefully things will get better. I have been reading a book titled Body Kindness by Rebecca Scritchfield, RDN. I think this is a great book to help myself and others remain positive.
It can be said that when you are mired in shit, sometimes the best thing you can do is hope that the bottom doesn’t fall out while you dig yourself out.